I'm trying to be more laid back about everything. But it's difficult (Mais c'est difficile) not only just attempting to be that way, but with also dealing with other people making comments about my change or attempted change in attitude.

So much of what anyone does is merely done to illicit some sort of validation or approval from other people. And when I say "anyone" it's a softer way of saying "I". I need to start doing things without other people in mind. That's not to say I'm currently a selfless person and I should take steps towards doing things for me. What I mean is I should start creating things for the sake of creating things. I shouldn't be so hesitant for fear of judgement.

RECKLESS SELF ABANDON. Fuck yeah.